Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

When I was in grade 7-8 my friends used to call me Dr.
I don't know why they called me that, while I didn't like biology at all.


couple of years later, as an experience I volunteered in a dentist office to check out what’s exactly going on, I remember every time the dentist was using a needle i was feeling the pain, Although because I had my teeth done, I knew the pain I was feeling is much more than what the patient is going through, But I couldn't help myself avoiding that imaginary pain. I was thinking no way I want to go through this for the rest of my life, and I change my major at school...


2 days ago, with no preparation and no experience in advance a nurse asked me to give someone her needle. It was ok, till I asked the nurse about air bubble and she said don't worry about it, you can give the patient the air bubble too. That saying remind me of those prisoners who were killed by air needle.
The air bubble, The fact I didn't know how much extra pain the patient might go through beacuse I'm not a professional, made met dizzy.
I wished i could have tried it on my self, instead of some one else, so by trial and error i would have find out the most painless way, and also i wouldn't need to take any responsibility for air bubbles.



Day after, when I gave the needle I asked again about the air bubble and the nurse told me beacuse the bubble is small and I'm giving it inside the tissue and not in the vein, every thing would be ok.

Today I gave the needle with no supervision, with no worry.
The patient supposes to get the needle for the next 20 days, at the same time. I can't make it for 3 days, but seems every body else is so affraid of doing so...